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Things weigh'd, I had a Struggle with Pride and Vanity and Inclination, but plain Common Sense got the better, and so [[symbol]] entirely, that my Mind has never even waver'd since one Instant. I took therefore the Resolution last year to return to England, to try that Transaction. I succeeded in the opening of it, and in setting myself those Points first, which could create most Difficulty, and then I return'd to France, not trusting myself with hearing the first Town Talk, and indeed the first publication of it gave some uneasiness to me, but I have now quite got over that too, and am my own agent (without any Pain) in settling the two Matters, remaining to be settled in that Transaction~ Having so far provided for my own Ease by this [[symbol]] Transaction, I thought it was worthwhile to try if I could not compleat the Ease and Satisfaction I wanted in my Situation. And to this, pardon me Sir, when I say it to you, my Seat in the House of Commons was a considerable Obstruction. I felt the Impropriety (to say no more) of retaining a Trust without executing it while I did, while I continued abroad, I felt too the Impossibility of my ever taking my Seat again in the House of Commons with any Satisfaction. I had seen too much Opposition, and knew too well, the Materials of which it was made, to put to Sea again in that Rotten Vessell. I knew the Inefficiency, and had long enough felt the Difficulty, of standing single, and unconnected in that Assembly. I believed too, that my Health would not allow my Attendance there, even if I could not have attended with any Satisfaction, and to any Purpose. I therefore applied to the King, to call me up to the House of Peers, which Lord Bath (without my Consent indeed) had ask'd for me at the time, when he himself was made a Peer, and which the [[catchword]] King [[/catchword]]