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whole Life a Canonry of Christ Church for my private Governor who had lived with me ever since I was six years old, and that [[symbol]] Favor I ask'd upon the repeated Assurance of his Majesty's wishing to do something to please me, and I obtain'd that of him in the most Gracious manner as soon as I ask'd it. The King was then abroad. I therefore took the Liberty to write a Letter to him to that Effect, which the Duke of Newcastle (to whom I communicated it first) delivered to the King, who sent me a very kind Message upon it, while I was abroad. My Scheme of going out of England, was to have gone into some of the Southern provinces, where the Climate would (I thought) have agreed with my Health, and the cheapness of living with my Circumstances, and there I proposed to stay till my own Constitution, and that of England were recovered, or at least seemed recoverable, and as I did not much expect that to either, I di expect to continue to wear out, with some more Ease in that Country, than in This, and to die out of my own Country with less Regret. But all these Prospects, you know Sir, have been totally changed.~ I went alone; the Fatigue of travelling in the Condition I was in, heated me into a Fever and hurt my Health much in its Consequences, it brought that Fever upon my Spirits, with which I was scarce able to bear, tho' but for a little part of a Day the easy Pavement of Paris in an easy Coach, and could therefore not think of a Journey, nor indeed I was then fit to undertake it alone, if I could have travell'd. Figure to yourself, Sir, a Man in such a Situation, unable to be either employed or amused. With the additional Anxiety of Indecision, what to do, and where to go, but with a decided Dislike, and Dissapprobation to continuing in the place he was in. My Time of Life, my circumstances, my Health, my Situation in Life, all detirmined my Mind, in dissapproving my Stay in [[underline]] that place [[/underline]]; and even [[catchword]] my [[/catchword]]